hyvää huomenta

^ good morning in finnish. not quite a romance language, but what's not to love about the finns?

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when last we spoke, mister was sick. then it came for me, and i took that sick and held on to it for close to a week, feeling tired and bored and annoyed at not being able to get rid of it right away. i never felt HORRIBLE, nor did i even really feel BAD that often; instead, i felt like i was swimming through wet cotton. 

but, that was then, this is now and i'm back to drinking coffee and worrying about the usual things i worry about. peace is hard to hold on to when there's a house to sell that is moving quite a bit slower than expected. my gay ex husband asked me when things would be "dangerous" if it doesn't sell for awhile — my answer made me feel better, because we can get to summer without DYING if we have to. 

after that, i'll die. 

ESPECIALLY since for the first time in YEARS i'm clutching my pearls over heating bills. lort knows what i'll do when i need the AC. [i just need to keep in mind that what we're paying NOW will most likely average what we were paying with solar and monthly utilities and the yearly true-up. but right now, that doesn't help because i'm still paying solar + higher bills right now. fuck all.]

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