A Myriad of Mayhem
Oct. 24th, 2015 11:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
liminal_spacehello, world. it's been a few weeks since my last entry and i'm blaming the blocking of LJ at work. i guess this is classified as a "social media" site and got blocked about a month ago -- either i caused it to get blocked or it's part of a "default block" in whatever our security package is.
there's a lot to record in my little virtual memory book, so let's get started.
1. since last i wrote, we yanked kid out of hillbilly school. i hate saying this because it sounds so arrogant, but they truly did not know what they were doing. her teacher was in a TK-3rd combo and admitted she was overwhelmed, they had JUST started common core and were actually going to work with me to develop LA curriculum, and poor daughter was underwhelmed and starting to dislike school. it didn't help that there were discipline/classroom management issues that were creating an environment that the poor girl wasn't used to.
so, we put her back in her old school and now we're all making the commute to and from town together at a very ungodly hour of the morning. she got car sick the first few times; of course, i had visions of a life ahead of her without tooth enamel, but thankfully (seriously, i can't stress that thankfully word enough), she's adapted. we're now at seven days without harfing.
another added benefit is that she's at 3 days a week on riding now. her last show was an amazing display of her increasing ability as a little equestrian and she's working hard at her sport. i don't get to go to the barn as much as i want (school makes me want to stab someone), but i'm hopeful that changes in the next few months.
the best thing, i think, is that i'm not as away from my family as i was. husband has driven to and from the past few weeks and i spend the morning just relaxing and feeling queasy and the afternoon feeling queasy and talking. i lost my driving glasses (NOT ON PURPOSE) and as soon as the replacements come back in, i can take over some of the drive. i don't want him to get burned out.
so, we have another five months minimum of this. i want to make sure we have the down payment/closing costs/furniture/moving money before we even start looking, and that's my estimation of when that will happen. until then, we live in 800 square feet of dogs/cats/kid/parents and do our best to be happy. luckily, being happy here is not hard. :)
when we move, we'll probably for sure most likely put the cabin up on the market. the place we're looking to move (Bear Valley Springs) has much of what we have here as far as nature and there's no real point in having two places in the wilderness. not that either place is the wilderness, but you get what i mean.
if you heard about the mudslides a few weeks ago in california (specifically the ones on hwy 58), this community was affected by them; if we had been there, we would have been TRAPPED for two whole days. o.O well, by trapped i mean we couldn't have made it to our jobs. :)
2. work continues to be a source of stress. there's so much drama going on! add to that the fact that a member of my team just pisses me off to no end, my union rep position is causing me to gnash teeth, and there's so much to DO...and yeah, i'm ready to do something else. i was thinking the other week how many times in my life i've reinvented myself and i started wondering if my hypersensitivity to word stuff was a symptom of internal restlessness instead of a reaction to outside forces.
the garbage song "i'm only happy when it rains" sometimes seems to be my anthem.
husband's work, on the other hand, is amazing. he gets to telecommute when he wants to, he's appreciated, and i imagine that if my discontent doesn't rub off, he could be CTO one of these days. well, if he learns the fine art of schmoozing. schmoozing is an integral part, sadly, of becoming a C*O. He's got the talent/skill part down pat. :)
i figured out he makes well over 3x as much as i do and i almost got irritated, but then i just wanted to go shopping. :( and i did go shopping which is even more :( :(
i'm supposed to be saving money, you know.
3. the mudslide rainstorm caused us to be w/o power for a few days and i had to get ready for work without a hair dryer and my makeup mirror. o.O the night it went out, i woke up and stayed up because it was too f'in quiet. seriously, the quiet up here is...QUIET. oppressively so. no one that hasn't lived where there are no other people and no electricity can understand how lack of noise can be heavy and disconcerting, i don't think.
the next day i made it to school (and actually got compliments on my hair!) -- afterwards husband and i went and bought a generator. it was still raining and i was still worried, so we all called in on friday and just stayed home. the power was off and on again, but we didn't use the generator. that was good.
4. the child is not a big meat eater, nor is she keen on "junk" meals that much, so when she asks for something like hamburger helper (gag), i try not to be a bitch about it and let her have it. she's been bugging me for it since like...september...so i was going to make it, but then decided to see if there was a recipe for "homemade". sure as shit, there was! i made it and, omg, i liked it. o.O she LOVED it. i mean loved loved, swooning and making gaga noises. bless her deprived heart. i loaded her plate with veggies and have decided as long as the balance in fruit/veggie/entree is right, she can have it more frequently.
i need to look for more things like that. *nod*
5. i had an amazing idea for a writing thing on the drive to town yesterday and got excited. i'm roadblocked on the other pieces and need something new. this one involves channel cocksucker red lipstick (there's a story behind that, truly) and a tesla -- it made me smile, and that's what's important.
6. i have a bucket of grading to do and a thimble full of motivation to do it. oh, dear.
7. it's cold here in the mountains; we may need a fire today. i find i'm always cold.
8. OH. i've gained a few lbs back and have decided next week i either need to get my shit together or just give up.
i don't give up.
the difficult challenge is finding time to exercise. seriously, time is wonk right now. i have a few ideas...we'll see how they pan out this week. =D
i'm not too worried; i can get back on track because i believe in myself, i've overcome obstacles greater than this before, and i have a lot of reasons to be as healthy as i can be. not just for me (because all i give a shit about are the clothes!), but for the people who love me. ;) that didn't come out exactly like i mean it, so please realize it's not just about vanity.
9. the daughter will be 9 next month. NINE YEARS OLD. she's such a delight to me! she's becoming quite the artist and her current foray into the art movement is related to figure eight zombies. *nod* she joined choir at her school and i'm hopeful that her voice moves from "I Love Lucy" episodic rhapsodies to something resembling in-key singing. if not? who gives a big crap, it's great. my favorite thing is when she sings lana del rey songs -- it's delightful. no birthday party this year because we're up here, but we're doing a big birthday bash at disneyland. five days, yo! =D i'm super excited!
10. we have a grey fox living in our area and see him/her every few days. what a gorgeous animal. i can have one, right? right.
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i think i'm going to go watch the squirrels and jays fight over the repast we put out for them. they're such jerks. :)
there's a lot to record in my little virtual memory book, so let's get started.
1. since last i wrote, we yanked kid out of hillbilly school. i hate saying this because it sounds so arrogant, but they truly did not know what they were doing. her teacher was in a TK-3rd combo and admitted she was overwhelmed, they had JUST started common core and were actually going to work with me to develop LA curriculum, and poor daughter was underwhelmed and starting to dislike school. it didn't help that there were discipline/classroom management issues that were creating an environment that the poor girl wasn't used to.
so, we put her back in her old school and now we're all making the commute to and from town together at a very ungodly hour of the morning. she got car sick the first few times; of course, i had visions of a life ahead of her without tooth enamel, but thankfully (seriously, i can't stress that thankfully word enough), she's adapted. we're now at seven days without harfing.
another added benefit is that she's at 3 days a week on riding now. her last show was an amazing display of her increasing ability as a little equestrian and she's working hard at her sport. i don't get to go to the barn as much as i want (school makes me want to stab someone), but i'm hopeful that changes in the next few months.
the best thing, i think, is that i'm not as away from my family as i was. husband has driven to and from the past few weeks and i spend the morning just relaxing and feeling queasy and the afternoon feeling queasy and talking. i lost my driving glasses (NOT ON PURPOSE) and as soon as the replacements come back in, i can take over some of the drive. i don't want him to get burned out.
so, we have another five months minimum of this. i want to make sure we have the down payment/closing costs/furniture/moving money before we even start looking, and that's my estimation of when that will happen. until then, we live in 800 square feet of dogs/cats/kid/parents and do our best to be happy. luckily, being happy here is not hard. :)
when we move, we'll probably for sure most likely put the cabin up on the market. the place we're looking to move (Bear Valley Springs) has much of what we have here as far as nature and there's no real point in having two places in the wilderness. not that either place is the wilderness, but you get what i mean.
if you heard about the mudslides a few weeks ago in california (specifically the ones on hwy 58), this community was affected by them; if we had been there, we would have been TRAPPED for two whole days. o.O well, by trapped i mean we couldn't have made it to our jobs. :)
2. work continues to be a source of stress. there's so much drama going on! add to that the fact that a member of my team just pisses me off to no end, my union rep position is causing me to gnash teeth, and there's so much to DO...and yeah, i'm ready to do something else. i was thinking the other week how many times in my life i've reinvented myself and i started wondering if my hypersensitivity to word stuff was a symptom of internal restlessness instead of a reaction to outside forces.
the garbage song "i'm only happy when it rains" sometimes seems to be my anthem.
husband's work, on the other hand, is amazing. he gets to telecommute when he wants to, he's appreciated, and i imagine that if my discontent doesn't rub off, he could be CTO one of these days. well, if he learns the fine art of schmoozing. schmoozing is an integral part, sadly, of becoming a C*O. He's got the talent/skill part down pat. :)
i figured out he makes well over 3x as much as i do and i almost got irritated, but then i just wanted to go shopping. :( and i did go shopping which is even more :( :(
i'm supposed to be saving money, you know.
3. the mudslide rainstorm caused us to be w/o power for a few days and i had to get ready for work without a hair dryer and my makeup mirror. o.O the night it went out, i woke up and stayed up because it was too f'in quiet. seriously, the quiet up here is...QUIET. oppressively so. no one that hasn't lived where there are no other people and no electricity can understand how lack of noise can be heavy and disconcerting, i don't think.
the next day i made it to school (and actually got compliments on my hair!) -- afterwards husband and i went and bought a generator. it was still raining and i was still worried, so we all called in on friday and just stayed home. the power was off and on again, but we didn't use the generator. that was good.
4. the child is not a big meat eater, nor is she keen on "junk" meals that much, so when she asks for something like hamburger helper (gag), i try not to be a bitch about it and let her have it. she's been bugging me for it since like...september...so i was going to make it, but then decided to see if there was a recipe for "homemade". sure as shit, there was! i made it and, omg, i liked it. o.O she LOVED it. i mean loved loved, swooning and making gaga noises. bless her deprived heart. i loaded her plate with veggies and have decided as long as the balance in fruit/veggie/entree is right, she can have it more frequently.
i need to look for more things like that. *nod*
5. i had an amazing idea for a writing thing on the drive to town yesterday and got excited. i'm roadblocked on the other pieces and need something new. this one involves channel cocksucker red lipstick (there's a story behind that, truly) and a tesla -- it made me smile, and that's what's important.
6. i have a bucket of grading to do and a thimble full of motivation to do it. oh, dear.
7. it's cold here in the mountains; we may need a fire today. i find i'm always cold.
8. OH. i've gained a few lbs back and have decided next week i either need to get my shit together or just give up.
i don't give up.
the difficult challenge is finding time to exercise. seriously, time is wonk right now. i have a few ideas...we'll see how they pan out this week. =D
i'm not too worried; i can get back on track because i believe in myself, i've overcome obstacles greater than this before, and i have a lot of reasons to be as healthy as i can be. not just for me (because all i give a shit about are the clothes!), but for the people who love me. ;) that didn't come out exactly like i mean it, so please realize it's not just about vanity.
9. the daughter will be 9 next month. NINE YEARS OLD. she's such a delight to me! she's becoming quite the artist and her current foray into the art movement is related to figure eight zombies. *nod* she joined choir at her school and i'm hopeful that her voice moves from "I Love Lucy" episodic rhapsodies to something resembling in-key singing. if not? who gives a big crap, it's great. my favorite thing is when she sings lana del rey songs -- it's delightful. no birthday party this year because we're up here, but we're doing a big birthday bash at disneyland. five days, yo! =D i'm super excited!
10. we have a grey fox living in our area and see him/her every few days. what a gorgeous animal. i can have one, right? right.
_______________________
i think i'm going to go watch the squirrels and jays fight over the repast we put out for them. they're such jerks. :)
