When You Fall....
May. 11th, 2018 11:20 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
liminal_spaceon wednesday, i became a legit equestrian: i had my first fall. lol
short story: we were on the trail, horse fell forward (like to his knee) then lurched sideways, i came off the side and landed on my shoulder. that makes it sound all floating and soft, but it was anything but...ha.
after getting up and dealing with horse getting his leg through the reins (that was a scary bit because he was so freaked after the fall), we did a body check and i got back on and did an hour trail ride.
when we got back, i got off and even though it hurt like eff, i got the saddle off and put away, got the boy taken care of and put away, and made it home without dying. lol
sleeping was hard, but i managed some. yesterday it was hurting pretty badly, so i went through the day with my arm in and out of a sling -- then, on the advice of too many people, i went to urgent care for a check-up, just to make sure my collar bone wasn't broken or there wasn't some weird fracture.
no breaks (yay!) but bad tight muscles that were in full on spasm. i got a prescription for a pain medication and a muscle relaxant, both of which seemed to help enough for me to sleep much better than the night before. woot! my arm/shoulder still hurt pretty badly, but it's type of hurt that's easier to deal with: it's not as fresh and unknown. mobility is still less than adequate, but i was able to do my hair this morning using both arms, which is an improvement. a big improvement.
so, trainer was proud of me for getting right back on and said there was probably nothing i could have done to stay in the saddle. ex-grand prix rider friend said the same thing. i think i might could have done something, but KNOW i could have probably landed better if i had engaged my brain. it was just such a rush of worry for him and being so surprised that he had actually fallen. rears, i've dealt with -- bucks, i've dealt with -- i just never thought about him falling.
i'm giving it a few days before getting on, but need to do it sooner rather than later so i don't scare myself out of ever riding again. it's about finding balance between letting myself heal a bit without it taking longer than it should. *nod*
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mister has been so amazing over the last month. with me being sick, kid being sick (still), the horse fall, he's just picked up the slack with zero complaint, zero hesitation. he's so good to us. :) today is our anniversary and it's been seventeen years of marriage + some odd # before that. he pisses me off at times -- as i'm sure i do him -- but there's so much good there that it gets us over hurdles. plus, after all this time, he still thinks i'm sexy. BLUSH, lol.
there are a few people i know who are married that do nothing but bitch about their partners; it's hard to listen to and i always try to tune it out, but it disturbs me on a variety of levels, because at its core it's disrespectful and ugly. i guess if there's one person you shouldn't talk shit about behind their back it's your spouse. when it gets past the point where it's idle complaining, i'll usually just get up and leave, but i get affected by it. one time i even suggested the lady talk to her husband if he was that horrible and she just looked at me like i was crazy.
lol. whatever.
i just can't imagine being that unhappy in a relationship: if it's that bad, leave. or fix it. or shut up. =D
idle thinking on a friday, i guess.
~~~
the end of the school year is soooooo close! i'm terribly excited. =D
short story: we were on the trail, horse fell forward (like to his knee) then lurched sideways, i came off the side and landed on my shoulder. that makes it sound all floating and soft, but it was anything but...ha.
after getting up and dealing with horse getting his leg through the reins (that was a scary bit because he was so freaked after the fall), we did a body check and i got back on and did an hour trail ride.
when we got back, i got off and even though it hurt like eff, i got the saddle off and put away, got the boy taken care of and put away, and made it home without dying. lol
sleeping was hard, but i managed some. yesterday it was hurting pretty badly, so i went through the day with my arm in and out of a sling -- then, on the advice of too many people, i went to urgent care for a check-up, just to make sure my collar bone wasn't broken or there wasn't some weird fracture.
no breaks (yay!) but bad tight muscles that were in full on spasm. i got a prescription for a pain medication and a muscle relaxant, both of which seemed to help enough for me to sleep much better than the night before. woot! my arm/shoulder still hurt pretty badly, but it's type of hurt that's easier to deal with: it's not as fresh and unknown. mobility is still less than adequate, but i was able to do my hair this morning using both arms, which is an improvement. a big improvement.
so, trainer was proud of me for getting right back on and said there was probably nothing i could have done to stay in the saddle. ex-grand prix rider friend said the same thing. i think i might could have done something, but KNOW i could have probably landed better if i had engaged my brain. it was just such a rush of worry for him and being so surprised that he had actually fallen. rears, i've dealt with -- bucks, i've dealt with -- i just never thought about him falling.
i'm giving it a few days before getting on, but need to do it sooner rather than later so i don't scare myself out of ever riding again. it's about finding balance between letting myself heal a bit without it taking longer than it should. *nod*
~~~
mister has been so amazing over the last month. with me being sick, kid being sick (still), the horse fall, he's just picked up the slack with zero complaint, zero hesitation. he's so good to us. :) today is our anniversary and it's been seventeen years of marriage + some odd # before that. he pisses me off at times -- as i'm sure i do him -- but there's so much good there that it gets us over hurdles. plus, after all this time, he still thinks i'm sexy. BLUSH, lol.
there are a few people i know who are married that do nothing but bitch about their partners; it's hard to listen to and i always try to tune it out, but it disturbs me on a variety of levels, because at its core it's disrespectful and ugly. i guess if there's one person you shouldn't talk shit about behind their back it's your spouse. when it gets past the point where it's idle complaining, i'll usually just get up and leave, but i get affected by it. one time i even suggested the lady talk to her husband if he was that horrible and she just looked at me like i was crazy.
lol. whatever.
i just can't imagine being that unhappy in a relationship: if it's that bad, leave. or fix it. or shut up. =D
idle thinking on a friday, i guess.
~~~
the end of the school year is soooooo close! i'm terribly excited. =D
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Date: 2018-05-11 06:29 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-05-11 10:11 pm (UTC)Happy Anniversary.
i just can't imagine being that unhappy in a relationship: if it's that bad, leave. or fix it. or shut up.
ITA.
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Date: 2018-05-15 04:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-05-15 04:10 pm (UTC)Please tell me you've fallen before. There are some people who say they've never fallen and I'm like WTF? How?