Chills, They're Multiplying
Nov. 1st, 2023 01:04 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
liminal_spaceit's been a minute.
in that minute, things have happened — as they do.
* i have written a number of lj entries IN MY HEAD but didn't actually write them out. topics in these posts have ranged from a) possible HIPAA violations in clinical settings, b) hypocrisy from platitude-posting "love everyone" people, c) books that promise the moon and deliver the basement, d) mondays and their role (NOT ROLL) in modern life, and e) my life and its mirroring of horror movie tropes.
they were all really good entries.
* our old man onslow has had trouble walking and getting up and down stairs outside, so he went to the vet. kid was CERTAIN he was going to not come home, but i was a little more pragmatic: medicine can help with what i knew was arthritis acting up.
i was right, but the muscle (i almost wrote mussel) degeneration can only be treated with exercise. he needs more walking. *nod* but it's cold and he doesn't want to go outside, bless his heart.
* yesterday, in the middle of the worry for old man onslow, kimjoybestdogever went lame, carrying her left forepaw off the ground and limping about all pathetic like. golden retrievers know how to work you, and she would just look at me with her sad, sad eyes and i'd just melt into a puddle of POOR BABY worry.
what kept me from going all nutso is that when she went outside with the other dogs? she played and romped and had a good time....with just a HINT of a limp.
girl, boo.
* i started work on the studio and headway has been made! my hope is that next week i can actually do WORK out there. the laser came in through sliders at the old house, but here? it needs to go through a real door. o.O if we can't get it in the studio, i'm going to have to do all laser work in the garage. feh! getting the man cave vibe out of there is going to be a long term project, but we'll get there.
* i have had three melt downs from worry over our california house not selling. girl, boo. it will sell, i know it will sell, but it may not be in 2024. lol
* i started meditating and it's been really helpful! i'm using the balance meditation app — which is free for one year — so if you're looking for some guided help, check it out.
* the hunt for fresh lotus root has continued with crappy results. it is making me CRAZY. i also need to find sake, fancy hot pot mushrooms, and fresh tofu. *sigh*
last entry i said we were settling in and we still are, but my happy "OH, LOOK HOW PRETTY THE FALL IS HERE" mood has shifted to a more cynical side-eye "IT IS EFFING COLD" mood. we got cold in the mountains, don't get me wrong. but this cold feels...different. it feels like it has the potential for teeth...and lots of them.
it doesn't help that i don't have THIS kind of cold weather clothes and i hate coats and socks make my feet feel claustrophobic. i'm basically agador spartacus in /the birdcage/. without, of course, the guatemalan-ness.
anyway, i'm being creative with clothing and hope by NEXT winter — if i survive this one — i'll have everything ironed out. sans coat.
i seriously hate coats and jackets.
but i do love the pretty here. even in all this snow. (note: mister said this is not really snow. i mean, we got 2 inches day before yesterday and kid and i were all SNOW STORM! and he-who-grew-up-here just shook his head at us. whatever, sir. whatever.)
next week we're planning on going to the twin cities for an asian market hunt and maybe, MAYBE, ikea. probably not, because if i go in that store, i'll leave $1000 poorer.
seriously. i seem to slip into a fugue in ikea and want all the things and can justify why we should get them. it's scary.
and in news that should have been at the top, i'm trying nano again this year. maybe this time i'll finish a november challenge. =D
ok. need to make kid her lunch and then head out to the studio.
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Date: 2023-11-01 06:32 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-01 06:56 pm (UTC)...and with you! xo
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Date: 2023-11-01 07:12 pm (UTC)sans coat
Searching for ways to break this to you gently...but there are none.
You live in Minnesota now? Girlfriend, you must have a coat.
Good luck with NaNo. I admire you for tackling it with everything else that's on yr plate.
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Date: 2023-11-02 12:38 am (UTC)there HAS to be a way. layers? i like layers. maybe i can just layer to the point i don't die and then if the temp drops below that point, i just stay inside?
about nano, right? plate 130923% full? ADD ANOTHER THING! why the eff not? *cry*
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Date: 2023-11-02 12:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-02 02:38 pm (UTC)POSTS LIKE THIS are what I live for. There why I returned to LJ.
I have been on LJ for a century since, probably the year it launched or perhaps 2nd year. And this feels like what I remember.
We don't know one another but somehow, your entry popped up and the first couple of lines hooked me. As lines have a tendency to do. We recently became entranced with New Mexico and it has now become "the -place -I -want -to -get -back to.Your writing and the "where it's going" of it have me intrigued.
I hope you don't mind I added you to my list of "those to follow" /slash/ "friends" and hope to follow along more as your saga continues.
I'm sorry about the canine friend. Hank Azaria and his... guatemalennnnesss. *chortle*
I suppose I'll fork-give you if you fork-give me. (ref: the other role of his I love)
Leaving so... spoon,
D
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Date: 2023-11-02 03:03 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-02 04:56 pm (UTC)onslow came back with a prescription and a need to strengthen his back leg muscles. poor boy! if this works out, we'll have him for awhile longer, and that makes me happy.
kim? she still limps when she remembers she hurt her foot. when she doesn't remember? she is RUNNING and BOUNCING and having a grand old non-limping time.
weirdo dog.
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Date: 2023-11-02 04:56 pm (UTC)they're our angel babies. *nod*
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:02 pm (UTC)this was a super nice comment to wake up to, thank you! :)
i had a different journal that was around since then, too. i let it go and it KILLS me that all those entries are just....gone. i remember that those entries were so much more honest and introspective than most of my current rambles — there's something about being young, in love, and with no kids that make you feel like the world is magic. not that i don't ever feel that way NOW....it's just not the same.
/mystery men/ and the blue raja provide my favorite thanksgiving line: "i knew i should have brought my large pie-server."
i like pie. sometimes.
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i added you back and welcome to the peanut gallery.
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:04 pm (UTC)If you feel like sending me pics of them, I wouldn't object... 😀
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:07 pm (UTC)and new mexico is LOVELY. some of the most gorgeous deserts in this country. but if i had to pick somewhere other than where i am and where i was to live, it'd be near flagstaff, az. we spent time there on our roadtrip out to minnesconsin and i fell in love.
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:08 pm (UTC)i totally will....i have an idea for my whole "tour of the homestead" thing and i'll just add the creatures to it. =D i can't promise WHEN it will happen, but i can promise it WILL happen. =D
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:20 pm (UTC)I can’t imagine that it would just be gone / removed? Unless by letting it go you mean you actually gave it the knife … perhaps a means of helping to stave off internet flotsam and jetsam.
As far as the concentrated venom of our younger days, yes true - but - I think part of it also is the soul-sapping nature of social media and other forms of mainstream media. They literally muddle the mind.
I watch 90’s documentaries and listen to 90’s hedonist anthems just to go back to those grungier days. The early 2000’s still had it too.
Now we’ve got what we’ve got. And it will be okay.
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Date: 2023-11-02 05:23 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2023-11-02 07:21 pm (UTC)from what i remember — and this was over 17 years ago — is that you could delete your journal in a fit of pique and recover it much later on (past the 30 days). i think i deleted it (in a fit of pique) and went back a few months later to reinstate it and it was no longer parked. >.< serves me right. lol
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Date: 2023-11-03 03:28 am (UTC)kimjoybestdog is so adorable even when she is trying to pull the wool over your eyes.
I hear you about IKEA. I always end up in some delusional state that if I get their furniture my house will look as neat and clean as their showroom. Alas I fear that has so far not been the case. lol
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Date: 2023-11-03 12:47 pm (UTC)oh good!
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Date: 2023-11-03 12:58 pm (UTC)I also write entries in my head and then wonder why my journal is so empty! I'm feeling a bit guarded about my journal lately.
anyway.
Here's my comment about you not liking coats and socks....lol! Try some felted slippers? Try layers? I prefer to go barefoot as well, but things get chilly when there's snow on the ground & the temp in the house is 64F or something. I have tried 'toughening up' my feet and walking barefoot when there's heavy frost outside & on occasion, a few steps in the snow on my front porch. But, girl---it's COLD. My feet are not that tough. I am a wienie! Also-try maybe wearing a hat-since we lose most of our body's heat through the head-that can really help. And oh--have you heard of Wim Hof? Maybe some of his cold therapy would work for you & all would be right. Or maybe not.
good luck in your quest for fresh lotus root!
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Date: 2023-11-04 07:59 pm (UTC)Glad you're settling in okay.
Yeah, the cold is real. Maybe you can get a battery heated jacket. :)
You can do the NaNo!