liminal_space | leave the cranky for tomorrow (Reply)

i promised myself that i'd get back to diligently following a budget in january 2025, but i didn't actually say what day that would start. so....tomorrow it will be, since i always feel like january 1st is like a blank piece of printer paper. i find that image soothing and peaceful, so let's not rock that boat today.

i was in bed around 10 last night and asleep long before midnight. i've stopped apologizing for not wanting to stay up — it's just who i am, so why bother? we did have some homemade italian hot chocolate and shortbread cookies while watching part of a movie, so that may be a NYE tradition moving forward. then again, champurrado and churros might be what happens next year. not both, because that would be just crazy.

mister has gone to TSC to pick up stall panels so misty has a place of her own. we're still probably going to pick her up saturday, but i'm waffling for a variety of reasons which all relate to not knowing how to handle minnesconsin winter horse care....it's NOTHING like california winter horse care.

it's all a learning process, right? right.

oh!

last night was a HUGE cool thing that happened and i'm giddy about it.

kid is a petite small (4 — 6 in jeans), but likes some of her clothes in the medium range...especially sweatshirts and PJ bottoms. last night i was folding a hamper of laundry and a few of her things were in there — including a pair of fleecy pink plaid pj bottoms in medium. i just wanted to see how small on me they were, so slipped them on....

and.

they.

fit.

not just fit, they were the right size.

i called her up to show her and she told me:

a) good for you!

b) give them back and stay out of my closet!

and

c) my jeans won't fit you, so don't even try! (she is absolutely right on that)

it was really a great (!!!!) way to end 2024. =D i KNOW these pjs run a little large, but that's not the point. lol

very recently i wanted to tell a woman who has been a bit obsessive and defensive about me losing over 100 lbs to stop yucking my yum, but didn't. i have no idea why she's fixated on me, but there's nothing i can do about it. she's not as sly as she thinks she is with the side-eye, passive aggressive comments, but at this point, it's more amusing than anything else.

there's always someone who is not going to like you for whatever reason and will go out of their way to try and make you feel shitty. the key is to be teflon — strive to let it slide.

my weight loss buddy suggested we kick her out of the group, but i figure she needs the support as much as i do, so voted to let her stay. i hope she finds a way to peace, because girl needs it.