liminal_space | august zoomies (Reply)

~ it's one p.m. and i'm still in my PJs, slippers, and doing the coffee thing. mister said he was thinking about waking me up to go kayaking (we bought our own last night!), but decided to let me sleep. which was good — i took an extra sleep aid last night and it was LOVELY, but the downside is that i end up sleeping in and taking awhile to wake all the way up.

plus, there's some serious prep on tap for labor day weekend: the board meeting must be epic.

~ there have been a few people on my FL that have talked about needing a new computer but balking at the cost. one suggestion i have is a chromebook; they're wayyyy cheaper and if you're just looking for something for non-gaming type of things, it's definitely something to look at.

when this one dies eventually, we'll get another one. i have my big computer for graphic work and gaming, but the chromebook is my go-to for writing, web stuff, research, email, spreadsheet work, etc and so on.

big benefit? the battery lasts forever. =D

~ we've had some cool down happening and although i appreciate the change while doing chores and riding, my tomatoes are not super happy about it. >.<

we had a pretty big thunderstorm come through last night and had to deal with the neurotic golden retriever's NEW problem — fear of thunder. seriously, this is a NEW thing and it's frustrating for all of us, because when SHE gets afraid, she wants to get so close to me that it's like she wants to wear my skin.

a few days ago, we got her a thunder shirt and it made a HUGE difference in her day-to-day anxiety. HUGE. last night we had to give her anxiety medicine on top of the shirt, and while it helped, she still was all sorts of WTF? about things.

~ we're looking at things to do for my birthday, and i think mister and i are going to do an overnighter in duluth or bayfield. if we do duluth, we're thinking of doing a train ride up to northern MN to look at leaves. if it's bayfield, we'll do an apostle island tour. they both sound wonderful, but the train ride appeals more, since i do NOT like boats on big water. too much room for sea sickness. ugh.

we haven't had a romantical birthday celebration for a LONG time, so it will be nice for the two of us to get away. ;) twenty plus years and we still really LIKE each other along with the other stuff — that's such a lovely thing.

there's also talk about getting away next year for a big family vacation (back to disneyland! alaskan cruise! finland! o.O), but we're going to have to really work on finding a reliable and amazing farm sitter to help out.

the thing is, i don't LIKE to leave my homebase for long periods of time; i love our property and our life here, so leaving it never feels quite right. and i hate flying. >.< i used to NOT hate flying, but when i had the child, i started getting really anti-air plane.

whatcha gonna do?

~ ima telling you, the road to goal weight is winding and bumpy and dumb. these last pounds are taking so much longer than i anticipated and i've started feeling a bit discouraged (and salty). i reached out to my skinny-bitch support group for some help and they came to my rescue and reminded me of the truths i already know about metabolism and fat and muscles and all that jazz. so at this point, it's about me retooling myf thinking, and i am going to just treat this last leg of the journey as a NEW journey: new goals, new mindsets, new tactics.

first of all, it's no longer about pounds...it's about PERCENTAGES. so as of yesterday's weigh-in, i'm 3.3% closer to my goal weight. =D

second of all, and this has more to do with riding than anything else, i need to really target my exercise. i don't plan on stopping anything that i'm doing, i'm just going to get pilates back in the mix ( kazzy_cee — my core will thank me, right?) to help with riding strength.

thirdly, i'm going to add a few more calories to the mix. not just any calories, but more complex carb and healthy fat types. i honestly feel like my body has settled into this weight/body and has a death grip on it because it believes i'm trying to starve it. pfft. silly body.

i probably could just stop where i am for weight and be just fine — "slightly" overweight is way better than where i was. i like my size for the most part (i can wear cowgirl boots now and look good! i can pick up bracelets and necklaces that look TINY and have them fit with room to spare! i don't need wide calf riding bo0ts!) and more toning will only work to increase my like.

but i'm nothing if not stubborn, and my mind is set on a weight # — and by golly, i'm going to get there. and who knows? when i get there, i might want to go down even more!

i can totally do it. #fighting

~ tomorrow is a ponyclub thing (yep, they sucked me back in maybe) and today was supposed to be full of things for the board meeting, but kid wants to go uptown for a breyer horse score. lol she is my little apple that's close to the tree.

this is fine, because i really should get a few things for food. i forgot to get mushrooms for the weekend, i need butter if i'm going to make brioche (still didn't make it!), and i'm in the mood for stuffed peppers (ground chicken, wild rice, kimchi, + a soy glaze). i usually like using red peppers, but those bastards are expensive right now. >.<