liminal_space | yeasty beasties (Reply)

while bread is mixing, i'm taking advantage of a few spare moments to pop in with an entry. everything feels so discombobulated right now, like there's no consistency in my life which is categorically untrue, but the thespian royalty that i am needs to escalate strife whenever she can.

i had an early dermatology appointment, so toodled off to that, got my medications renewed for another six months, and got a little weird scabby thing on my leg frozen off.

she said, "this is going to be spicy" and it was! but i kept telling myself, "you have been kicked in the small of the back by a horse, flew and landed in mud and shit, blacked out....so this is nothing, girl."

it helped.

after that, a quick visit to the store for salad mix, grapefruit, and cabbage (it's soup time, yo!), and a chat with a guy who has one of the new EV mustangs. we compared cars, he showed me his, i showed him mine, and i gotta say....the mustang has my vote for next car if we go EV. it's so cute! i don't know how practical it is for WEATHER, but maybe it would be ok? clearance is what kills the tesla. ugh.

on the way home. i realized that we went from gorgeous fall colors two days ago to naked grey branches scratching the sky. =\ it made me...not quite SAD, but maybe a bit melancholy? not sure. what i am sure of is that you blink around here and it turns into winter.

i decided i needed to feel worse before i felt better, so listened to some of my favorite california-flavor songs, with /el lay/ (snoop and marty james) reminding me of southern california in a lovely way.

got home, visited the horses, came inside and here we are: bread a'goin', heat a'blastin', and husband — as usual — on a'meetin'. =D

oh, and has their been pay from new company yet? no. no, there hasn't. lol we are now waiting for a check for august, september, and october. will they break it into three checks? nope. all one check, so the tax gouge is going to most likely cause me to go apoplectic. as of right now, things are supposedly worked out — but it's not like we haven't heard that before. there are SO MANY labor laws that have been kicked in the nuts over all of this, but the truth is NOT reporting it is the wisest course of action at the moment.

at one point on friday, i was sure they were quiet firing him, which would have meant getting the labor board involved, but then he finally got the 411 on what's been happening, why there's been such secretive bullshit, and an appropriate level of grovelling by the c-suite people, so even i am happy with that part.

until that check gets in my greedy little hands, i am making my "ok, SURE" face at them.

we're ok $$ wise, which i'm so utterly and tremendously grateful for. i just want to get as far out from under the yoke of debt as much as i can by the end of the year. (and go shopping)

ANYWAY.

i spent the better part of an hour working on a short piece of fiction that i'm going to send off to one of the calls for submission that cornerofmadness posted recently. o.O this is a big step for me! it's honestly not about hoping to have this piece accepted; it's about writing again. whatever it takes, i want to get back to words. my words.

i'd love to share it here at some point, and probably will in a very filtered way. or maybe not. sometimes, sharing WiPs here feels really dangerous — long ago, i used to do it pretty frequently. maybe not all of it, but passages, chapters, paragraphs. after having my words heisted, i'm gun shy.

plus, sharing work is inherently a vulnerable thing....maybe it's best to save for a writing group or something where the PURPOSE of sharing is shared by everyone involved.

oh, lort. battery dying. bye!