sitting with myself

[liminal_space]

+ i belong to a FB group with all of my weight loss friends + weight loss community and when i visit, i have a shortcut on my desktop so it goes straight to that group and there's nothing else for me to see. 

two days ago i didn't visit the group that way and just went to my feed — where i saw, and commented on, a post about a proposed data center in duluth. of course the ignorance was rampant about the situation and i ended up engaging when i should have just shaken my head and moved on. 

now? it's like the internet "caught me" and is bombarding me about all the data centers in the world that i should be pissy over and i started fretting. 

just a general fret over stupidity and nonsense and UGH. 

today i just shut it all down and decided that the only one i want to take up space in my mind is me. 

me, me, and me. 

i can still engage in the protest surrounding the data center in duluth, but i don't have to deep dive on social media to do so. i don't have to let that negativity in, so i won't. i shall shun the negative energy!

and no unshunning!

this whole idea of sitting with myself and keeping negative/toxic away has been a periphery focus for awhile now. i started really acting on it mid-november when i started eliminating anything that was not doing good by me. and anyone. and anywhere. well, as much as i could. 

i don't *owe* anyone that is not a friend/someone i connect with/family an explanation about extricating myself from bad juju. it's OK to just do it. 

it's liberating and SO good for my mental health — i can already feel a warm and cozy blanket of safety starting to wrap around my heart. 

good riddance to bad rubbish. 

(that is truly one of my favorite sayings! the word "rubbish" is so much better than trash. ;))

maybe the person, the events, the news that were removed from my life would make a good little novel! "what does it take to make our plucky, witty, and wise heroine reach the point where she goes scorched earth?"

oh, and skinny. SKINNY, plucky, witty, and wise. (i was able to get the pair of size 10 petite pants on and buttoned and zipped after forEVER. not quite where i'd wear them out in public yet, but really close.) 

(i know i'm not skinny lol but compared to this time two years ago, i am!)

anywoot, i need to get. so i'm gonna. <3

Comments

[adafrog.livejournal.com]

Send negative vibes away. *nods*

[ali hassan (from livejournal.com)]

“Totally get this! Sometimes the best thing we can do is protect our peace and focus on ourselves. Glad you chose ‘me, me, and me’ — your mental space matters.”

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[one-raido.livejournal.com]

I've seen discussions on that data center.

[elizalavelle.livejournal.com]

I keep having to relearn that. Sometimes it's better to just disengage than to try to have the fight. I can have a reasonable conversation with people I know in real life. However, comment sections of the internet are filled with bad actors, trolls, people who have been hired to cause unrest and spread lies... There's no chance of winning those people over.