feeling the loss

* it snowed yesterday and has been pretty cold. ninety-five percent of the time, i actually like this weather....when we lived in the sequoias, winter was my favorite season because of how quiet and introspective it is when there's actual WEATHER to deal with. five percent of the time? i'm just sad that i'm not home. 

it doesn't help that i'm missing disneyland quite a bit right now. we went from monthly visits to no visits due to covid. then, when dland opened back up, some of the changes they implemented left us not wanting to even bother — so we didn't renew our annual passes. we kept telling ourselves we would go back, but....

here we are, a million miles away from one of my happy places and today i feel it. :( 

i'm sure we'll get back there a few more times before we die (lol) but that doesn't make today's melancholy go away. 

* we ended up sending my stupid walking pad back because i was seriously going to kill myself on it. who the hell in this world has a stride THAT short? i could probably have got in step (ha) with the walking in a straight line thing, but the mincing little steps? nope. 

what i need is a) a reformer, b) an eliptical, and c) a mean-ass little personal trainer that chains me to both until my workouts are finished. =D until then, though, i'm trying to do STUFF without feeling bitter about it. because i'm sorry, i'd much rather be reading a book than doing strength training. 

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