I am queen of the laundry
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liminal_spaceDeep questions that, even unanswered, say quite a bit about me:
1. Why do I wait until the weekend before school starts -- after a leisurely two week vacation -- to tackle the huge project of going through all the clothes and laundry and organizing everything?
2. Why do I put off 'til tomorrow what I could do today?
3. What causes me to want to quit work all the time?
4. Where do I come up with such good arguments to convince people to do what I want them to do, even though I really don't think I want to do what I'm convincing them of -- it's more about "hrm, let's see if I can do this!"?
5. What makes me think people don't know I have a fangirl crush on BTS? All of them. Shh.
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Today was a little stressful and made me rather pissy -- I'm still holding on to it a little bit, so...
Kid had Pony Club certification going on this morning. The plan was to drop her off (like we have been doing ALL WEEK), go do grocery shopping, then come back. When we got there, the trainer started making comments about her hair (it's supposed to be neat/tidy/stuffed up under her helmet -- and it never is lol) and I said something like "OK, listen, here's the deal" and he was all "No, YOU listen, blah blah" and I was all, "I will cut you" but didn't say that. I did get in a snarky dig when he was like "why don't you have a hairnet for her?" and I pointed out that the grocery store didn't carry them.
They may, but I didn't check. Really, the point in all of this was don't tell an 11 year old what she needs then get on my shit when she doesn't get it. OR, if it's that much of an issue, text me or, considering we see each other every fucking day, TELL ME.
Then he was all "OH, you're not staying? Parents need to see what this is about" so I stayed, Mister went, and I got more pissed off because I sat at a picnic table away from the action -- since parents can't be too close. WTF. I swear, I was ready to take my earrings off and have Juanita hold the baby.
BUT...I did spend my time chatting with friends and being around horses, so that's good. It's nice that so many folks miss my "there every day" days. :)
It's good to be liked.
OK, just writing that makes me feel better.
Anyway.
I'm not ready to go back to work, but I would survive next week if I didn't do anything else this weekend. Most likely there'd be freakout, but I'd survive: the kids will be all wonky next week, just like me. =D Tomorrow I need to do a little bit of planning and get through the week with little drama. I can do this. Fighting!
Ahem.
What's making me really not want to go to work is that the weather has turned perfect: cool, foggy, and wintery. We've had close to three weeks of sunny days and mild weather and it blows. It was supposed to rain today, which would have been EXTRA perfect, but that got pushed out to....Monday. Yep. The day I go back will be when the good weather lingers. Loser weather.
Today I worked on a bullet journal spread that focused specifically on water intake and carbs for January. If I do each day, I will earn a gold medal! =D I would make it out of a yogurt lid, but that would wonk my carb count out. Office reference for the win. Anyway, I like the feeling of control having things in ink gives me; even if I don't see it through, there was an hour today where I was in multicolor, fine-tipped charge of my life. *nod*
Mister lit the bbq up earlier and did our steaks and will soon make some roasted Brussels sprouts for me. I do love his sprout makin'. Tomorrow I'm making sesame chicken with riced cauliflower "fried rice" -- and I'm trying to keep cornstarch out of the mix by maybe, possibly using Xantham gum. If anyone has tips on using it (it will be going into a hot liquid mixture), I'd love to hear them. Monday I'm hoping to start weaning myself off heavy evening meals again. I may have a week of salads to help in that arena. Kid, of course, will need her dinner noms, so I'll have to cook for her. She likes pasta and has the metabolism of a ferret, so she'll be OK.
I mapped out a plan for exercise that I really like, so that's going to get kicking on Monday, too. I've been reading an abundance of material relating to "the journey" of life and really like the idea of balancing quick goals with long term goals. Really, it's about head, heart, and hearth: I know the things I need to do to get to where I need to be, so I just have to start moving. When I see how far I've come with horses, I really recognize the value in patience and not worrying. Me now vs. me when I started -- lol. =D
Ooh, Mister said he'll get me a fire going in the front room, so I only have a few minutes.
1. I want a t-shirt that says "Takes No Shit". Totally me.
2. Since break started, I've read like 6 books and it's felt wonderful. The books have ranged from a cheesy (seriously...cheesy) romance that I THOUGHT was going to be centered around horses, but it wasn't to a thick and unwieldy nonfiction piece on the life of the Tudors. I believe I mentioned that one. Between those two literary extremes were a mystery novel, a YA novel, a biofic novel, and a weird memoir.
3. Before the end of the school year, I need to try and get in one or two courses so I can move over a few steps on the pay scale. Mama needs tall boots.
4. I have been binge watching "The Office" still, but allowed a few movies to nestle in. Today I rewatched "Hackers and....OK, maybe only one movie. :P
5. I had grand hopes of being able to finish "The Office" before I went back to work, but alas....not gonna happen.
6. Again, I asked for real balsamic vinegar and didn't get it.
7. Mister is in contact with an old friend who lives in Sweden. We have been invited to visit anytime. He's offered his house in Spain to us to use "whenever we want". It would be stupid -- I mean seriously stupid -- not to take him up on that, right? I just don't want to fly. BUT, we're going to get passports for all of us this year: that's a step in the right direction. Plus, when Fuck You, Trump COMPLETELY loses his mind and things go to shit, we will need to escape quickly. How dramatic. Good thing he's not crazy, right?
8. My daughter continues to be an amazing human being. She has a heart that is as big as the world.
9. I have a small bottle of green ink for the fountain pen and I can't get it open. This is troubling -- often, when the cap is hard to get off, the ink has started separating a little and it's turned crusty. Crusty ink and fountain pens are no good together.
10. Two new journals are currently waiting for me at the UPS Store. I can't get them until Monday, but knowing they are there makes me happy. Maybe this will be the year I get back into writing like I used to.
I go now!
1. Why do I wait until the weekend before school starts -- after a leisurely two week vacation -- to tackle the huge project of going through all the clothes and laundry and organizing everything?
2. Why do I put off 'til tomorrow what I could do today?
3. What causes me to want to quit work all the time?
4. Where do I come up with such good arguments to convince people to do what I want them to do, even though I really don't think I want to do what I'm convincing them of -- it's more about "hrm, let's see if I can do this!"?
5. What makes me think people don't know I have a fangirl crush on BTS? All of them. Shh.
~~~~
Today was a little stressful and made me rather pissy -- I'm still holding on to it a little bit, so...
Kid had Pony Club certification going on this morning. The plan was to drop her off (like we have been doing ALL WEEK), go do grocery shopping, then come back. When we got there, the trainer started making comments about her hair (it's supposed to be neat/tidy/stuffed up under her helmet -- and it never is lol) and I said something like "OK, listen, here's the deal" and he was all "No, YOU listen, blah blah" and I was all, "I will cut you" but didn't say that. I did get in a snarky dig when he was like "why don't you have a hairnet for her?" and I pointed out that the grocery store didn't carry them.
They may, but I didn't check. Really, the point in all of this was don't tell an 11 year old what she needs then get on my shit when she doesn't get it. OR, if it's that much of an issue, text me or, considering we see each other every fucking day, TELL ME.
Then he was all "OH, you're not staying? Parents need to see what this is about" so I stayed, Mister went, and I got more pissed off because I sat at a picnic table away from the action -- since parents can't be too close. WTF. I swear, I was ready to take my earrings off and have Juanita hold the baby.
BUT...I did spend my time chatting with friends and being around horses, so that's good. It's nice that so many folks miss my "there every day" days. :)
It's good to be liked.
OK, just writing that makes me feel better.
Anyway.
I'm not ready to go back to work, but I would survive next week if I didn't do anything else this weekend. Most likely there'd be freakout, but I'd survive: the kids will be all wonky next week, just like me. =D Tomorrow I need to do a little bit of planning and get through the week with little drama. I can do this. Fighting!
Ahem.
What's making me really not want to go to work is that the weather has turned perfect: cool, foggy, and wintery. We've had close to three weeks of sunny days and mild weather and it blows. It was supposed to rain today, which would have been EXTRA perfect, but that got pushed out to....Monday. Yep. The day I go back will be when the good weather lingers. Loser weather.
Today I worked on a bullet journal spread that focused specifically on water intake and carbs for January. If I do each day, I will earn a gold medal! =D I would make it out of a yogurt lid, but that would wonk my carb count out. Office reference for the win. Anyway, I like the feeling of control having things in ink gives me; even if I don't see it through, there was an hour today where I was in multicolor, fine-tipped charge of my life. *nod*
Mister lit the bbq up earlier and did our steaks and will soon make some roasted Brussels sprouts for me. I do love his sprout makin'. Tomorrow I'm making sesame chicken with riced cauliflower "fried rice" -- and I'm trying to keep cornstarch out of the mix by maybe, possibly using Xantham gum. If anyone has tips on using it (it will be going into a hot liquid mixture), I'd love to hear them. Monday I'm hoping to start weaning myself off heavy evening meals again. I may have a week of salads to help in that arena. Kid, of course, will need her dinner noms, so I'll have to cook for her. She likes pasta and has the metabolism of a ferret, so she'll be OK.
I mapped out a plan for exercise that I really like, so that's going to get kicking on Monday, too. I've been reading an abundance of material relating to "the journey" of life and really like the idea of balancing quick goals with long term goals. Really, it's about head, heart, and hearth: I know the things I need to do to get to where I need to be, so I just have to start moving. When I see how far I've come with horses, I really recognize the value in patience and not worrying. Me now vs. me when I started -- lol. =D
Ooh, Mister said he'll get me a fire going in the front room, so I only have a few minutes.
1. I want a t-shirt that says "Takes No Shit". Totally me.
2. Since break started, I've read like 6 books and it's felt wonderful. The books have ranged from a cheesy (seriously...cheesy) romance that I THOUGHT was going to be centered around horses, but it wasn't to a thick and unwieldy nonfiction piece on the life of the Tudors. I believe I mentioned that one. Between those two literary extremes were a mystery novel, a YA novel, a biofic novel, and a weird memoir.
3. Before the end of the school year, I need to try and get in one or two courses so I can move over a few steps on the pay scale. Mama needs tall boots.
4. I have been binge watching "The Office" still, but allowed a few movies to nestle in. Today I rewatched "Hackers and....OK, maybe only one movie. :P
5. I had grand hopes of being able to finish "The Office" before I went back to work, but alas....not gonna happen.
6. Again, I asked for real balsamic vinegar and didn't get it.
7. Mister is in contact with an old friend who lives in Sweden. We have been invited to visit anytime. He's offered his house in Spain to us to use "whenever we want". It would be stupid -- I mean seriously stupid -- not to take him up on that, right? I just don't want to fly. BUT, we're going to get passports for all of us this year: that's a step in the right direction. Plus, when Fuck You, Trump COMPLETELY loses his mind and things go to shit, we will need to escape quickly. How dramatic. Good thing he's not crazy, right?
8. My daughter continues to be an amazing human being. She has a heart that is as big as the world.
9. I have a small bottle of green ink for the fountain pen and I can't get it open. This is troubling -- often, when the cap is hard to get off, the ink has started separating a little and it's turned crusty. Crusty ink and fountain pens are no good together.
10. Two new journals are currently waiting for me at the UPS Store. I can't get them until Monday, but knowing they are there makes me happy. Maybe this will be the year I get back into writing like I used to.
I go now!
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Date: 2018-01-07 02:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-01-07 04:46 am (UTC)Totally OK! I am trying to add you back but I can't figure out how from my phone lol.
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Date: 2018-01-07 06:01 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-01-07 04:32 am (UTC)Which journals do you write in?
Myself, I like Baron Fig. The paper in Leuchtturm1917 is nicer, but the cover material on Baron Fig is much nicer......
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Date: 2018-01-07 06:08 pm (UTC)For the journals I see as my day-to-day, personal-space, literary meandering journals I usually go with this specific notebook (https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B001E6CQ9C/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1).
I just ordered two of these notebooks (https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B005UOHQR6/ref=oh_aui_search_detailpage?ie=UTF8&psc=1) to try out.
I tend to stay away from "fancy" journals for my day work; it often fills like that unless I have something profound and well-formed to write, I'm doing the fancy pages an injustice. They're like a dress-up date at a swag nightclub for me. Performance anxiety!
Regular notebooks let me scribble from the inside out. I like that. :)
(That said, I looked at a few Baron Fig journals just now. LOVE them!)
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Date: 2018-01-07 06:09 pm (UTC)I can't have too many journals; it keeps me too spread out.