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Kid is home for another day -- but I think things are really on the mend now: she hasn't coughed in over two hours. o.O So, I'm taking another day off without pay and trying to just relax and enjoy the day off...especially since she's doing so well! If things stay like they are, I'm hopeful she can go to school tomorrow. Bless her little heart.

Yesterday was a nice MD all around. Kid made me breakfast (she has watched Alton Brown's videos on making scrambled eggs and is a pro), I took a nap, and the fam made me my requested dinner of spaghetti and meatballs.They were surprised I asked for pasta (I generally don't like pasta all that much), but were up to the task. After dinner, we went to take care of horses, then came home. After a muscle relaxant, I passed out pretty quickly. :)

I have four tomato plants and some flowers they got me, but my big present is still <i>out there</i> somewhere, waiting for me to find him. You would think it'd be a fuck-all lot easier to find a horse than it has been, I tell you.

Anyway.

This morning I was thinking about writing here, mentally rough drafting an entry and I realized that what I really wanted to do was whine about the same shit I whine about all the time. It led me to open up this window and stare at it for over three hours -- off and on -- while I thought about how the "problems" in my life are ones I'm sick of having as problems. They're so utterly fixable and me not fixing them says so much about me, and not in a good way.

So, without further ado, the things I am going to dedicate my life to attacking in the next 90 days:

*weight

* writing

Get rid of one and get more of the other. Life is too fucking short to be a sack of whining bullshit over things I can control. hashtagbadass

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There are things, however, that I can't problem solve easily, but none are really worth mentioning. It's about being the light, remember? Not just for others but also for myself.

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Over the weekend I read a lot which was pretty darn nice! (Actually, I've been reading quite a bit over the last few weeks...we like that part of testing, yes we do.)

* Mountain Man — Keith Blackmore

* Safari — Keith Blackmore

* All of the stupid, not-so-well-written Selection series by Kiera Cass

I'm currently reading The Long Way to a Small, Angry Planet by Becky Chambers and enjoying it for the most part. I still think that my degree in English killed some of my ability to just enjoy books on their terms. Then again, it made me a better reader and thinker, so it was a trade off.

To start my summer, I've picked a few books from the library and have some shortlisted for buying. I have trouble with library books, for the most part -- they're so, so....touched. o.O

Anyway, here's the library list:



It's enough to get me started.

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All this empowerment has left me sleepy. =D I may take a wee nap before Mister gets home; at 4, we are going to meet a different trainer that's going to start working with Smitty. Hopefully, we can get him into trail-horse mode at some point.

I wonder what Seija would have done had she seen me fall the other day?

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Thank you -- she got bad again last night, so is out of school for the day again. If I didn't have the gut feeling that she's fine overall, I'd be worried.

I personally get tied up in my own whine -- it's a cyclical pit of ugliness in me that feeds on itself. It manifests in physical and mental ways that do me no good. You whine, boo -- be you. =D

xo