and so ends year 10
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liminal_spacetoday is the last day of school -- always a day that i never do as well as i'd like and never as well as i did my first few years of teaching. i can say i end this year really liking my students and they really like me: that's good enough for poor people.
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so what does my summer hold?
i usually have so many plans that nothing gets really completed. i was very hopeful that boo would be 100% ready for me (and i for him) by this point in the year, but bad weather, bad attitudes, and a lack of confidence have thwarted me.
now that the mud is drying up and i feel somewhat human, i just have to start where i am and go from there.
i firmly believed i would be doing pilates 3x a week and be well under way to my saddle-sitting svelte self. that...hasn't happened. not even remotely close. i mean, it's almost the opposite of happening.
as with boo, i just have to start where i am and go from there.
the final "focus" i think will just be on me: that way the DOING of things can change as needed. i get pretty tunnel visioned when i try to organize myself too much and it never ends up well. so, one day the focus on me might be redoing my closet so i'm better equipped to grab and go when it's time to get dressed. the next, it might be on crafting so i have a supply of "gifts" for all the birthdays i tend to forget. :) i do want to play with decorating cookies, just so i can make cookies like these:
seriously, that's the only reason why i want to do it. =D
anyway, allowing myself some fluidity is probably going to be the thing that helps me accomplish some goals and end the summer with some positive changes.
go me. =D
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an old friend from HS found me on FB and we spent some time casually catching up. it was nice -- he's the guy that his first wife got pregnant so he'd marry her and i wasn't too surprised to find that they divorced. :( he said something nice -- "you were always so nice to me and i know i was sometimes an asshole, so i'm sorry".
it's nice that he remembers me as nice, when that really is one of the last adjectives i'd use to describe me during that time. "nice" sounds so mature and open minded and i don't remember myself that way at all. i was a hot mess.
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ok. this entry was started at about 9 am and it's now close to noon. =D i'm going to log off and get ready for my summer vacation which starts at precisely 12:39.
.
so what does my summer hold?
i usually have so many plans that nothing gets really completed. i was very hopeful that boo would be 100% ready for me (and i for him) by this point in the year, but bad weather, bad attitudes, and a lack of confidence have thwarted me.
now that the mud is drying up and i feel somewhat human, i just have to start where i am and go from there.
i firmly believed i would be doing pilates 3x a week and be well under way to my saddle-sitting svelte self. that...hasn't happened. not even remotely close. i mean, it's almost the opposite of happening.
as with boo, i just have to start where i am and go from there.
the final "focus" i think will just be on me: that way the DOING of things can change as needed. i get pretty tunnel visioned when i try to organize myself too much and it never ends up well. so, one day the focus on me might be redoing my closet so i'm better equipped to grab and go when it's time to get dressed. the next, it might be on crafting so i have a supply of "gifts" for all the birthdays i tend to forget. :) i do want to play with decorating cookies, just so i can make cookies like these:
seriously, that's the only reason why i want to do it. =D
anyway, allowing myself some fluidity is probably going to be the thing that helps me accomplish some goals and end the summer with some positive changes.
go me. =D
~~~~~~~~~~
an old friend from HS found me on FB and we spent some time casually catching up. it was nice -- he's the guy that his first wife got pregnant so he'd marry her and i wasn't too surprised to find that they divorced. :( he said something nice -- "you were always so nice to me and i know i was sometimes an asshole, so i'm sorry".
it's nice that he remembers me as nice, when that really is one of the last adjectives i'd use to describe me during that time. "nice" sounds so mature and open minded and i don't remember myself that way at all. i was a hot mess.
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ok. this entry was started at about 9 am and it's now close to noon. =D i'm going to log off and get ready for my summer vacation which starts at precisely 12:39.
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Date: 2019-05-31 11:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-06-01 06:25 pm (UTC)In high school I had these two brothers (twins) who would pick on me and be the biggest assholes you’d ever meet. Twice at class reunions they have apologized. They were drunk both times.