light at the end of the tunnel!

[liminal_space]

i don't quite know what to say about this bipolar weather i'm experiencing. i mean, i actually DO know what to say, but i'm a motherfucking lady and i don't use that type of language. tomorrow is supposed to be 60 degrees and the next day it will be 30. wtf. <--statement type wtf, not question. 

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there has been a WONDERFUL development on the "in search of lotus root" front! mister found an asian food whole seller in the twin cities (close to 3 hours away) that DELIVERS to duluth (30 mins away from us)! know what they have? LOTUS ROOT, YO! and and and and....they have pickled daikon, and chubby short carrots, and cheese corn dogs, and tonkatsu sauce, and hot pot ingredients, and and and and....

so i've been spending the morning building a shopping list and being MOST excited about it. 

that's about the extent of the day. i woke up really early with another bad stomach ache, so have been moving pretty slowly. i looked up some of the stranger symptoms i have had with this malaise and my last one, and guess what the number one trigger is? 

no, it's not lack of lotus root in the diet. it's stress. 

s.t.r.e.s.s. 

not surprising! :P

well, that's not all i have done, really. i paid bills, updated the budget, thought about balancing the checkbook, and got a few things ordered for the wee bebe for her birthday next week. 

she's going to be seventeen. *cry* i love her so much and want to turn back time and have my little fey, golden-haired toddler for a little while longer. not permanently, mind you — she's pretty awesome at this age, too. 

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updates and junk:

— onslow had to go back for a second vet visit and is now on a monthly ketamine shot + daily arthritis routine. he's doing much better, but still is pretty weak in the back legs. my heart hopes this will be a miracle, but my head thinks we will probably need to let him go soon. :( that boy is such a good boy and his absence will leave a hole in our hearts, but i firmly believe they stay with us in some lovely, cosmic way, so i am fully peaceful with the decision when it's time. 

still, i hope for a miracle. 

— there have been more house showings with no offers. real estate agent isn't worried, mister isn't worried, so i worry for all of us. i realized that i'm not worried that it won't SELL, i'm worried that i'm going to have to keep being all GOOD with money for awhile longer. ugh. hates it. 

a few days ago i was just mad at the world and was ready to pack my toothbrush and pillow and go back to california and live in my empty house where i know more people and where i won't be cold and where i can get lotus root. :P i got over it. 

— mister will be leaving us on the first week of december for a few days — his work is flying him out to the PNW for a christmas party and to meet one of the biotech clients he works with. kid and i will be all on our own and i bet you a dollar to a donut, there will be a one day blizzard on the full day he's not here. 

look for (melo)dramatic entries around that time. 

— i had a short story idea LOOSELY framed around papa hemingway's /hills like white elephants/ — with the setting around the mojave phonebooth. and no one is pregnant. i started working on it and i'm surprisingly liking it! it's most of an exercise to just get words connecting more than anything — it's been too long since my voice has had an opportunity to sing. or warble. whatever.

i really love a good short story and it says a lot about my sensibilities that joyce, heminway, and cheever are my favorite short story writers. i like quite a few others almost as much, but those three? masterful. 

and wth that? i go.

Comments

[namastaybaybay.livejournal.com]

I cannot believe your little one is seventeen. Time really flies.

[liminal-space.livejournal.com]

it sure does!

[howlin-wolf-66.livejournal.com]

I wish Onslow much more happiness with you all, in his lifetime. :-) ❤️

[liminal-space.livejournal.com]

thank you so much. he's doing so much better — we're overjoyed about that. :)

[havin001.livejournal.com]

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[maju01.livejournal.com]

I fully empathise with your excitement at finding a source of foods you miss from California. I've been very happy to find a few places where I can by foods and snacks from Australia that I miss here.

[liminal-space.livejournal.com]

it seems like getting those specialty items wraps me in a warm blanket of nostalgia....and i like it!

[adafrog.livejournal.com]

Happy Birthday young one.

Interesting story idea.

[liminal-space.livejournal.com]

<3

we'll see if the story has legs. :)

[honor-reid.livejournal.com]

Congrats on the writing and Happy Birthday to your daughter!

Keeping my fingers crossed that your house sells soon. I'm so glad the search for lotus root is over and you found a supplier!

[liminal-space.livejournal.com]

thank you thank you!

fingers are still crossed — SUPPOSSEDLY there are two parties interested that are going to put in offers, but i won't believe it until i see it. :) still no fresh lotus root, but i have vacuum packed parboiled lotus root, so we'll see how that fares in hotpot.