just remember when you start to miss me....

[liminal_space]

^ my friend e. put a recent trail ride snip to a song that he says reminds him of me. awwww. ;)

my world is a dazzling place right now, and i am so thankful and grateful and full to bursting with happy. 

there are a million things (hashtag hyperbole) i want to write about:

~ toni morrison's words of advice to writers 

~ hay splinters and how to deal with them

~ my enchanting garden!

~ a room without a view

~ poetry: a love and hate relationship

~ bathing suits and hard won body positivity 

~ plans for the summer: to take a class or not; that is the question (i got to use two of my favorite punctuation marks! sweet!)

~ mister's job and the loops it's throwing our way

~ my best girls 

~ a time in my life when these lyrics were my life:

~ i was going to start a youtube channel showing the real world of farm life, but this bitch beat me to it. (love love love matt matthews!)

~ new doors and opportunities opening up. =D

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and on the health front...

these last pounds that need to be gone are requiring far more strategizing than before; i was on a serious plateau for a month and went from losing an average of 9 lbs a month to like...3. after changing things up, it's picking up speed again and i finally dropped into a new decade. yay! 

dr. sexy said that in the next few months we'll be starting the move toward maintenance, which is a great feeling! having a team of experts to help, having my "getting skinny, bitch" girls for support, and having my most beloved family be my champions has ensured that i have, from the very beginning, felt that all things were possible. 

there are people who are jealous about others that lose weight — i know i've been there, felt that...but i've never been snide or dismissive of their accomplishments. i've sucked up the jealousy, got over it, and cheered them on. feeling good about other people's achievements and letting them know that steals nothing from you...i think it shows what kind of human you are (or at least want to be). 

that said, i say this to the old bat who thinks her 14 lb loss has turned her into a skinny minny and periodically passive aggressively sniffs around my edges to find a place to bite....congratulations, granny. :) only 140 more to go! you can do it! 

(was that passive aggressive, too? i find that skillset suddenly becoming easier. lol)

anddddddddddddddd more pictures:

this is my sad, sad dog. she gets mad when i turn off the tv.

you don't measure food in cups, you measure with a scale. you also weigh your gargantuan eggs to impress your neighbors.

spinach from the garden + peppers in auntie esther. this is how breakfast rolls.

big protein for brekkie to go with the veggies.

someone come help me put the fucking letters up for the dressage court, pls. this is like mathy or something. UGH.

this is my sweet little bebe when she was wee — and our most beloved of smitty ponies. i miss her littleness and miss him being around.

this is where we sneak in and wash horse pads and blankets. shhh.

+ y'all be good. k?